when you said those words, i know it's meant to be broken. And you didn't disappoint me; you're nowhere now. kthanksbye :)
on closures and leaving
I am a sucker for "they lived happily ever after" endings. I can't get over sad endings, those that someone leaves instead of lives. Both sound almost(?) the same but have completely different meaning.
I've been avoiding closure, not because I don't want relationships to end but because I rather want to believe nothing has ever started. I'm not histrionic whose world ends when someone leaves; on the contrary, I let people leave any time they want without actually holding them back, and sometimes I unconsciously push them away knowing it will just lead to another ending. For me, it hurts much more that something didn't last rather than it didn't exist at all. Leaving, either you're the one who left or is left behind, would always mark a scar. But even when I try to convince myself that nothing needs closure, I think it's necessary now. I'm dragged by it.
A closure would do; I am not expecting and wanting a new start.
she misses me :')
My former tutee texted me saying it's my "twin sister's birthday" (another tutor whom they say is my twin haha)
I replied and asked how she (my tutee) is and she replied with "I am kk lang. I miss you so much. tom is my math test last test!!!!" it's been 3 months since i last saw them and i thought they forgot me.. makes me want to cry *but tears just won't fall haha*
i feel loved :)
mangga masarap!
Since I am not in any way romantically involved with a creation that holds beauty as mine, I'll talk about food for now 'cause I am a glutton-risk-wannabe-food-critic who loves to eat (not just taste) anything new to her taste buds.
Last week after receiving our much-awaited allowance, I went with two lovely ladies to dine at Cafe Breton. How we decided on the place is a long story and definitely deserving of another post. We ordered burger, tuna sandwich, liegeois (caramel for me, vanilla for ate noime and regular for katH (emphasis on H) and La Pinay crepe ('cause we're proud pinays). We shared all. Now I will not talk about all those here..just the La Pinay. La Pinay is a mangoes-with-chocolate-syrup-with-vanilla-ice-cream-on-top sort of crepe... and it tastes delicioso!
here's a picture i borrowed from the internet ('cause ate is still not uploading our pics!)
While eating that sumptuous crepe, we were like "this is so rich" "it is perfectly combined" "this is just delicious" "you could taste the saltiness and sweetness perfectly blended". yes, we tried to sound critics but failed haha
Yesterday I went on a dinner date with my accountability partner and we went to Teriyaki Boy. I was still not hungry but she was so she ordered a heavy meal and I ordered Yogato frozen yogurt. (I am right now, at this instance, craving for dessert!). I didn't order the usual..I made my very own yogato :)) it's a plain yogurt with cubed mangoes, meringue, and caramel sauce :) i didn't take a picture of it but it looked like this:
sulit ang 78pesos for a regular plain yogurt :)
Having said those.. I came up with a conclusion... mango is a perfect combination with dessert of all sort :)
I wanna try macaroon! :))
RUN!
i am a person who works best when the environment is good. i shut down when things are chaotic.
my friend told me yesterday that what if my GB is no like me..i'll surely have a hard time being with him. And thinking about it right now makes me want to RUN hahaha
i know God is full of surprises and it feels like my GB would be the total opposite of me!
new found
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
-What Hurts the Most, Rascal Flatts
Now I think I'm a fan of Rascal Flatts :)) thank you dude for introducing them to me.