we love you. i love you

hitherto you have not believed you are loved. i'm telling you,you have to believe that you are really loved.. and live in that truth :) God loves you big time!

twerp talking to his brother

i've read that we should rise in love, not fall in love. falling in love is for the weak and only immature people "fall" in love because when you fall in love, you depend on the other person you've fallen in love with. i believe we have to be independent, with or without a partner. i mean, people don't love a person because he/she completes the other. it's just immature. you expect some incomplete person to complete the incomplete you..in that case, no one will be complete. you have to be complete without the other. rise in love. be complete with just you. be complete in God. i just don't buy the drama that you need someone, a person, to be complete. that's just plain absurd. i'm not against being in a romantic relationship. i just think that the two should rise in love and grow in love, not fall :)

zero balance

i think i was hurt by my friend. i think i hurt her too.
i didn't see her text messages and i have zero balance so i couldn't reply.

i thought a fuzzy elephant would sense that i wasn't really ok but he didn't and he couldn't.
anyway, God knows it so i'm ok with that..so much ok :)

i just learned that i shouldn't rely on people or maybe i shouldn't wait for people to ask me instead i should tell them when i'm not ok because they care enough to listen..?

i don't know what to learn from this haha

the fuzzy elephant is too "careful" and i'm fuddled. i don't know what's in his fuzzy heart and it feels like there's so many secrets kept from me. oh well, let's leave that :))

a fuzzy elephant

yes there's this one fuzzy elephant circling around me. haha

he's a funny fuzzy elephant and he never tires of loving people. he's always ready to give them a warm big hug and a shining smile. *yes the metals on his teeth are sparky!*

this fuzzy elephant is a weird one and when i say weird..i mean the unusual one

i'm glad God's guarding my heart.

maybe i'm just afraid that this fuzzy elephant will one day get tired of loving people or worse, get tired of loving me and will disappear in a smoke. the fuzzy elephant is doing too much and i'm scared i'll get used to this fuzzy elephant that i'll miss him when he's gone for good in my life..in a twerp's life

i think i'm pushing him away.. sort of.. or i'm just trying to see if amidst all my flaws and bratiness..he'll stay.. well he's still staying but until when? i have to keep my palm open so it won't be difficult when he has to leave.

don't try

"i just want to keep you"
"i am trying my best to keep you"

-you are the first person who told me this. really. gah! i'm not leaving, ok? and you really don't have to try your best. i don't think i'm worth your best *sigh*