knew it.

see told you *referring to everybody*
that was it.

hair down!

i saw him again and yehes! we talked! hahaha
saw him last saturday. we chatted a little
"i heard a news about you"
"what??"
"nothing"
"no, seriously, what??"
"you have a boyfriend"
"whaaat?"
"you like a guy that your friend likes, blah blah"
"hahaha that's not news, that's gossip!"

hey i'm waiting! :)))))
he's wearing white. teehee~

i saw him again... finally! haha

yes, i saw him again! he was the guy i was talking about in my first few posts here. he saw me on the mall, he waved his hand and smiled and the me who's "blind" had to squirt my eyes to see who it was and i had to take a few steps nearer to see and yes it was him! i waved and smiled back and it was weird 'cause i didn't or we didn't both know if we should talk for a sec or the wave and smile were just enough. we were hesitant to go nearer to each other so we just waved and smiled and went our separate ways. yeah, i was kilig 'cause it's been a while since we existed in each others life haha.. thank You God :)

love anyway

The most powerful word in the universe is “anyway”. As in, you mess up, but God loves you anyway. You make mistakes, but God believes in you anyway. You are a sinner, and God wants you anyway.

“Anyway” is what makes love, well, love. Because love doesn’t depend on behavior. It doesn’t depend on performance. Love sees you and chooses you. Love makes up its mind to be for you. Love loves you anyway.

-Jed Brewer

do not settle

“You shouldn’t settle for “good enough” in your relationships, God blesses those who wait for what He has in mind. You shouldn’t settle for small dreams, God has big plans for your future. You shouldn’t settle for being a rule follower, instead seek to love God with all your heart, soul, mind, and body. That love will take you beyond reason and sanity, to a place of wild devotion where big plans are set in motion and loving partners await to assist us.”

—	Unka Glen (unkaglen.tumblr.com)

hurting ad trusting

though I am hurting, I will still trust You. I will keep on believing that You love me and that You care for me, that You know what You're doing.
I will keep believing even when it's hard. help me to believe.
thank You Jesus.


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I don't know why I'm hurting..maybe because my pride was hurt.
I know I'm just not ready for a relationship..I'm sure of it. and I don't want to be a burden to my partner, I have to deal with my issues first before I meet him :)

we love you. i love you

hitherto you have not believed you are loved. i'm telling you,you have to believe that you are really loved.. and live in that truth :) God loves you big time!

twerp talking to his brother

i've read that we should rise in love, not fall in love. falling in love is for the weak and only immature people "fall" in love because when you fall in love, you depend on the other person you've fallen in love with. i believe we have to be independent, with or without a partner. i mean, people don't love a person because he/she completes the other. it's just immature. you expect some incomplete person to complete the incomplete you..in that case, no one will be complete. you have to be complete without the other. rise in love. be complete with just you. be complete in God. i just don't buy the drama that you need someone, a person, to be complete. that's just plain absurd. i'm not against being in a romantic relationship. i just think that the two should rise in love and grow in love, not fall :)

zero balance

i think i was hurt by my friend. i think i hurt her too.
i didn't see her text messages and i have zero balance so i couldn't reply.

i thought a fuzzy elephant would sense that i wasn't really ok but he didn't and he couldn't.
anyway, God knows it so i'm ok with that..so much ok :)

i just learned that i shouldn't rely on people or maybe i shouldn't wait for people to ask me instead i should tell them when i'm not ok because they care enough to listen..?

i don't know what to learn from this haha

the fuzzy elephant is too "careful" and i'm fuddled. i don't know what's in his fuzzy heart and it feels like there's so many secrets kept from me. oh well, let's leave that :))

a fuzzy elephant

yes there's this one fuzzy elephant circling around me. haha

he's a funny fuzzy elephant and he never tires of loving people. he's always ready to give them a warm big hug and a shining smile. *yes the metals on his teeth are sparky!*

this fuzzy elephant is a weird one and when i say weird..i mean the unusual one

i'm glad God's guarding my heart.

maybe i'm just afraid that this fuzzy elephant will one day get tired of loving people or worse, get tired of loving me and will disappear in a smoke. the fuzzy elephant is doing too much and i'm scared i'll get used to this fuzzy elephant that i'll miss him when he's gone for good in my life..in a twerp's life

i think i'm pushing him away.. sort of.. or i'm just trying to see if amidst all my flaws and bratiness..he'll stay.. well he's still staying but until when? i have to keep my palm open so it won't be difficult when he has to leave.

don't try

"i just want to keep you"
"i am trying my best to keep you"

-you are the first person who told me this. really. gah! i'm not leaving, ok? and you really don't have to try your best. i don't think i'm worth your best *sigh*

i like a guy. God knows it and i've surrendered the guy to him but i still like him. my discipler told me it doesn't just disappear overnight.

*sigh*

the other boy stuttered while talking to me. ha! who's the boss now? haha
i'm just happy that i'm not the one stuttering and at lost with words

i feel pretty bwahaha!!

dudududum....

memories keep popping in my head!
why do you have to be damn likable and irresistible? hahaha!

this sucks

why does it always have to be someone who's already committed? i can't fall twice. i've had enough hurts. i just hate how i let myself be vulnerable to such acts. too stupid to fall the second time.
not guarding my heart.
good thing we'll not see each other.
i hate how i overanalyze things when it means nothing to anyone

goodbyes

it saddens me that we'll have to part soon.
we only have a week left
we've spent 3 weeks together. i'll miss you. surely i will
you guys really brighten my days
i thank God for you

to the group who made me laugh and let me be "me", who let the child inside me come to the open once again.. i love you and i'll miss our bonding and laughter.

another goodbye is drawing near.

love

people around me are either on their way to a romantic relationship or just got out of a relationship.. but either way, both are in love.

i'm in love too.. just not the romantic type of love.

i love people..but not an honest love, not a pure love, not love in its deepest sense.
i just love..i love the feeling of loving people, of having a smile painted on one's face

love

i love love

God, i want to love more. i want to love like you have loved me.
i want to love You with everything in me.
i want to want You and be overly contended with You, just You.